One week to go and things are really starting to feel real! Last week at work seemed to just be full of ‘lasts’ which has brought to reality the fact that life is about to change…… a lot! I’m really feeling sad to be leaving and the reality of not doing something for a living that makes a significant difference to other people is starting to unsettle me. The big change is so close now that I have stopped thinking about it too much anymore. I think that when you know that you are heading in the right direction, all you have to do is keep walking.
I can already feel myself becoming more relaxed and wanting to do more. I have space in my head to think about other people in my life. There sure are more important things in life than work and it is scary to think how hard it is to see that when you are in the thick of it.
Me being me, I am already thinking about 2019 and whether I will want to go back to Forest School or not. I had one of the nicest days with the kids at work on Friday and it really made me think, ” why am I going?” In contrast, I worked in the shed today making some shelves. Music on, sun coming through the window and nothing too much in my head about all of the things that I need to remember for the coming week. I was a happy man! I am fairly certain that there is a compromise to find and a way of working in a meaningful job that doesn’t consume me and compromise my personal relationships. Maybe……. it not the job, its the way you approach the job? I’m trying not to think about it too much yet because I know the answers will come while I’m sat in the shed making something or painting somebody’s wall. I’m braced for a good year and ready to find some answers!